ready for change

I cannot seem to figure out what it is I want anymore.  Just when I think I have started to figure things out I get thrown for a loop and the confusion sets in all over again.  I just feel like there's something more, something bigger for me to do with my life.  Let's face the facts here though, I am not getting any younger.  The more I try to get rid of old habits the more I end up  missing them and wanting to revert to my old ways.  There is something to be said about being in your comfort zone.I mean really, who wants to go through change not knowing what the outcome will hold? It is always easier to stick with what you know.  Maybe i just need to pray for more guidance and believe that God will show me the way.  All I do know is that i want to be happy and provide the best possible life for my children.  I want my reality to play out like a fairytale. I want to feel like a princess and I don't think that just because I need affirmations that make me feel good as a person it does not mean that I have self esteem issues! Is it so bad to want to hear nice things on a daily basis. I am probbably one of the most positive, happy, peppy people you will ever meet but if I don't get that in return I find that my mood takes a turn for the worse and I become defensive and combative.  I will continue to be me and hope for the best. The only difference this time is that I determine my fairytale ending. I am doing me so that I can be the very best i can be for my kids. I want nothing but the best for them and above all I want for them to be as happy as can be.